abuse of CAPSLOCK ahead.

I'm having a FRUSTRATING evening. I need to rant. RIGHT NOW. Before I explode and make things worse.

 I'm feeling all disorangised and messy, and its GROSS. Nothing is nice and easy to get to, nothing is all neat and pretty and I want it to be. I want a GOOD photo sharing program thing. no, not a good one, I want iPhoto - because even with all its crappiness it doesn't piss me off like InfranView or Picasa - both which I find ILLOGICAL and STUPID. PLEASE PICASA - I DON'T WANT TO YOU TO LOOK THROUGH MY COMPUTER AND FIND ALL THE PHOTOS ON THERE - I WANT TO DO IT, I HAVE A LOT OF CRAP ON MY COMPUTER - I DON'T WANT TO LOOK AT IT AGAIN. EVER. SO STOP PISSING ME OFF. And FAMILY please! InfranView is NOT the HOLY GRAIL - it can't CURE CANCER, create WORLD PEACE or save the STARVING CHILDREN IN AFRICA!! It just exist to PISS ME OFF. Okay! Because yes, I AM THAT SPECIAL. 

And BEDROOM, please STOP being SMALL and MISSHAPED and CRAP. I CAN'T BREATHE. Everything is just too big a MESS!! and I have NO idea where to start to get it all pretty. I want a nice CLEAN hard drive! and a PRETTY well oranigised MY DOCUMENTS. And I want a LAP TOP. 

ALSO I have an inability to THROW anything OUT. And I have things saved on my hard disk from the DAWN OF TIME that I just can't throw OUT. It makes my TUMMY hurt to even think about! BUT MY COMPUTER isn't NICE AND SHINY AND CLEAN AND PRETTY!!  

Also all the meta out their is making me PARANOID! I feel an overwhelming urge to lock my LJ down and hide under the BED. And I DON'T KNOW WHY. I suspect it has something to do with the Sponsored Communities and talk of employers looking up LJs and parents being SNOOPY. Which isn't a PROBLEM for me - but I'm PARANOID anyway. AND IT's ALL YUR FAULT. Yes I'm looking at you.  


...okay, calming down... 

But seriously - it all started with cleaning my stairs and a FEAR to walk into my bathroom because of the possibility of being attacked! by mutant GERMS and has ended in me having a FIT because its all STUPID. All I wanted to do was look through my 5,000 Kenyan digital pics to pick out 100 that I want to print. THAT WAS ALL, but I can't find a way of doing it that I LIKE, there is just TOO many and its FRUSTRATING doing it in My Documents or whatver because its too slow. I'm also lacking in wall space and I own lots of crap.

But to solve all my problems - because buying SHINY things solves all problems - I've decided to buy a laptop, and a car, and go on a holiday, and go to Russia next year and go to Europe for a semester in 2008....

... all do-able if I marry rich and sell my soul. 


But in the meantime... I'm going to go KILL something - calmly - and the abuse the English language some more, watch The West Wing, clean my room, avoid my bathroom (6 FOOT GERMS!!) and yell at things.  BECAUSE I'm FRUSTRATED!!