teaonthestairs | (no subject)

I'm having a really, really shit day, like breaking out in tears, hysterical shit day, everything keep breaking, or is broken - I hate my computer, I hate the weather, I hate driving and I hate my dad. My computer is so fucked up at the moment and I can't even fix it because I don't know how, I can't ask my dad because he blames me, gets angry at me, yells at me when this happens - its not my fault the way our stupid, fucking system is set up - its not my fault, or maybe it is but I can't fix it, I don't want to deal with this now - I don't want to deal with anything now.